1 year - A disappointing end to a great year!!!!

My little boy,

For me, it has been an eventful year to say the least  - from being a new mom who had no idea how to hold a baby, to someone who learnt quickly on deciphering the cries of the baby, to someone who waited patiently for each milestone, to someone who was proud about every single action of yours, to someone who cried every time you fell ill, to someone who stopped thinking about herself, to someone who wanted to give the best to you, to someone who became a child once again.

Now for some updates:

• Advertisements in TV are your best playmate. You forget the world when ads come on TV. Of course, I make the best use of it by feeding you at that time. :)

• You love kids. Every time I take you outside and you see a toddler or a kid, you show your eight teeth and want to go to them.

• You are still not standing up and I am slightly worried because of it. I hope you start walking soon.

• The new game that we play now is placing the chair at the center of the house and both of us trying to catch each other by going around the chair. In between you try to catch me by crawling beneath the chair. :)

• I spent 600 Rs. on repairing my mobile phone thanks to you. You happily peed on the mobile phone and I was stupid enough not to notice it. I cleaned the wet floor but did not notice the phone. So, after a few hours I look at the phone and it is dead. All my attempts at keeping the phone in rice tin, or placing it on hot vessels were of no use. Finally when I took it to a service center, I see that the display ICs have burnt. I was tensed for a couple of days and was restless to have the phone back. But once I got the phone, I did not use it for the next two weeks :)

• We had your ayush homam on September 6 and you made sure that the garland was on you for exactly 3 seconds. Of course you behaved like a good boy, playing with everyone and then sleeping when the actual pooja took place and finally waking up when people were giving you gifts. :) I think you have your priorities correct.

• We were at Madurai for 3 days to attend your mama's wedding and I am just totally proud of you. You were happy to play with anyone, smiled at everyone, slept with anyone and were really an easy baby to handle. However, on the final day, things took a total U-turn. You fell ill and refused to go to anyone and slept only on my shoulders.

• This continued for a week and I understood the truth when people say that having a child is having your heart go walking around outside your body.

• Because of illness and general tension in the family we could not celebrate your first birthday in a grand manner. Your mama bought a cake and we ate it. Of course you held the knife when your grandmother cut the cake :) It was a disappointing end to what has been a great year.

• More the time I spend with you, one thing is becoming clear. You are not one of those expressive kids. You keep everything inside your heart. For example, when you look at the TV and I switch it off, your give a disappointed look and you turn to the TV again after a few seconds to see if it is switched on. But that's it. No cries, no tantrums, no loud noise. I am not sure what goes in your head. But I hope as you grow, you express yourself rather than keeping everything within you.

• This year truly has been great. There were the usual fights, discussions and misunderstandings in the family but because of you everything was resolved quickly because everyone smiles looking at you and hence there is a sudden positive energy at home.

I have learnt so much about myself, my priorities, life in general. Nothing in this world matches the selfless love that you give me and just looking at your sleeping face at the end of the day is enough to bring calmness and peace to my heart.


Love you dear.