Teary love!

My boy,

It has been quite a while since I had written about you (well almost 2.5 months), the reason being I was just physically and emotionally tired. But then you decided that you will give me shock-treatment so that I will record the same. So, here I am to record the happenings of last couple of months and the shock I received yesterday!!!

• Last couple of months you have learnt to stand by yourself with support. But rather than trying to walk, your next step has been to climb. You climb over everything –your mom, chair, bureau, TV stand, cot, window, door, gate and what not…

• Generally, babies will start saying amma, appa, tha-tha and then move on to other words like anna, akka, and so on. You were saying amma, appa, tha-tha earlier and now fail to open your mouth. Hmpf!

• Though you do not speak in words, you communicate well. For example, if I feed you food or even water, you push my hand away. If I try to take a toy that you play, you drag it from me. If I do not give you the camera after taking a couple of pics, you cry and shake your hands and legs showing your protest. If you can not reach for something, you life your hands and ask me to carry. If you want something, you look at the item and then at me and repeat this for 3-4 times. Boy, I know you everything I speak goes to your head but I would love to receive response from the mouth. Please consider!

• Your love with TV and advertisements continue. If you showed your liking through your smiles earlier, now you also move your hands and head very fast and it is absolutely cute! Especially when someone smiles on TV, you love it totally!

• Finally, you spend time with all the toys, but not that you play with them. Rather, you look at every single bolt, nut, screw in it and try to loosen it and break those into pieces. I think you will become an engineer.

• During the second week of November, your GM went home. So, I had to manage you, home and work for a month and I sincerely thank you for sleeping at 9 p.m. every single day.

• Your GM made mysore pagu before she left and I made gulab jamun later for Diwali. You disliked both. You really do not like sweets. But you loved the ribbon we made. Guess you like only spicy food.

• On the day of Diwali, after dressing you up and taking a few pics and generally playing with you, you slept. So, I went to wear my Diwali dress and get dressed. When you saw me after waking up, you were so happy to see me in a saree and all dressed up that you started playing hide and seek with the saree. You laughed so much that I realized this is why festivals are celebrated – just to laugh and be happy!!!!

Okay, now that I am done with the updates let me describe what happened yesterday.

There was no power at home and since I am forced to rely on TV to feed you, I knew I was up for a challenge. So, I motivated myself and thought I could distract you and it worked in the morning. Come afternoon, you were pretty sure that you do not want food. I tried cajoling you – you hugged me but refused to open the mouth. I brought all the toys and made you play – you looked at them but same result. I took you to the window – you looked around but same result. I made you stand at the gate – you played with the lock but same result. After trying everything that my brain could come up, I finally gave a hard look and told you not to come near me and walked away.

You tried to come near me but I did not pick you. And then I got busy with other household work. After 45 mins, when you felt sleepy and you realized that I was not picking you, you started crying… Boy and how much did you cry! You cried for a full 30 minutes, the longest so far. I really had no clue what was happening for first few minutes. Later, once I understood that you missed me, I removed your clothes and hugged you tight and started speaking to you for the next 20-25 minutes…. Uff…. And you slept later…. And then I CRIED….

This parenthood is truly very difficult. :( I scold you for your betterment and finally, you make me feel bad and cry…. Serious emotional blackmail this is, I tell you! But I realize it does not matter who is around, if I am not there you search for me… And I do not know what I did to deserve this attention and love.