After a long time, I have come here. Honestly it was a conscious decision on my part not to blog during what has become the toughest phase of my life. In short this is what happened in last two months.
How much ever I tried to be optimistic and tell myself that I can face this challenge, at the end of the day, seeing my baby sleep tore my heart and I started questioning myself on what I did wrong and why all this is happening to me. Since I mostly blog during the night, it meant that most of my thoughts were depressing and definitely not something that I would want to read later or worse even pass it on to others. So, I did not blog.
But, when friends call or message and ask me how I am doing because there is no update on the blog, I feel guilty. I definitely should be loyal to my readers (thank God even two count as plural :)). Thanks folks for remembering me. I am doing okay, trying my level best to help my child. Thankfully he is responding well to the therapy. His concentration, sitting tolerance and eye contact has improved. He responds when his name is called most of the time. He still is not speaking. I guess will have to start speech therapy in a month or two.
Apart from my son, I know very less of what has happened in the last three months. TV is totally banned at home. No current affairs. No IPL. No Sports. No serials. No films. Whatever little I know is because of blogs or facebook. (I tell you I never thought I can live without a TV for so long, but it really has been a boon. I have not missed it much.) I have been reading a lot of books and which has really helped in giving me some peace at the end of the day. Some day, I will document more about autism and things that I have learned. It was an eye-opener for me.
So, that’s what is happening at my end and will be the same for the next two months I guess. Once again, thanks for keeping a check on me. Love you all!!!
- ADHD became autistic.
- A normal child was labeled “special child.”
- An enthusiastic mom became a depressed mom and then a determined mom.
How much ever I tried to be optimistic and tell myself that I can face this challenge, at the end of the day, seeing my baby sleep tore my heart and I started questioning myself on what I did wrong and why all this is happening to me. Since I mostly blog during the night, it meant that most of my thoughts were depressing and definitely not something that I would want to read later or worse even pass it on to others. So, I did not blog.
But, when friends call or message and ask me how I am doing because there is no update on the blog, I feel guilty. I definitely should be loyal to my readers (thank God even two count as plural :)). Thanks folks for remembering me. I am doing okay, trying my level best to help my child. Thankfully he is responding well to the therapy. His concentration, sitting tolerance and eye contact has improved. He responds when his name is called most of the time. He still is not speaking. I guess will have to start speech therapy in a month or two.
Apart from my son, I know very less of what has happened in the last three months. TV is totally banned at home. No current affairs. No IPL. No Sports. No serials. No films. Whatever little I know is because of blogs or facebook. (I tell you I never thought I can live without a TV for so long, but it really has been a boon. I have not missed it much.) I have been reading a lot of books and which has really helped in giving me some peace at the end of the day. Some day, I will document more about autism and things that I have learned. It was an eye-opener for me.
So, that’s what is happening at my end and will be the same for the next two months I guess. Once again, thanks for keeping a check on me. Love you all!!!
I am proud to have a friend like you Brindha. You are not just a courageous young mother, but you inspire all around you with your determination, sunny temperament and warmth. God is great and our little rockstar will show great progress I knowww. Sending you loads of love and best wishes. God bless you and I love your spirit :). Looking forward to your next blog and I'll send you plenty to read soon :))
ReplyDeleteThanks dear for the luv and support....!!!
Deleteaah... so I get to read the first cut... Am happy!!!
Hi Bindhu - thanks for your comment on my blog. Not sure if that is the first time you ahve visited my blog. This is my first time here. I will read more of your posts later. Am sorry about what you are going through/gone through. But mothers like you are an inspiration really. I always think about how much courage, mental strength and determination it takes to accept things and say I can do this, I can make that child lead a normal life. Only when we face challenges we realize esp when it comes to our children we try to rise above it all and somehow find the strength in us. My good friend has gone through such struggles and my son KB used to be part of the therapy sessions for her child in the early years along with that boy's brother. That boy is now doing so so so well. Totally main stream. I always admire my friend for how much effort she put in to get him there. You will find the strength, you will do it too. My heart felt wishes to you. If you don't mind emailing me, I can send you some of the internet resources I have come to know of...do you live in India?
ReplyDeleteNoon - Thanks for your detailed comment. Yes, I live in India. I am sorry I could not find your email ID in your blog. Mine is brindha.seshadri@gmail.com
ReplyDeleteHi, Bindhu!
ReplyDeleteCame here through your comment on my blog. I know you will take your tough phase and come through as strong as steel. The main thing is to identify an issue - the labels are incidental...I try to use them to help my child get what he needs, so even useful from one angle. The therapies out there are pretty effective, so hang in there. The best is yet to come!
Hugs!
Hi Sangi,
DeleteMy heartfelt thanks for taking time out to help me and send me those emails. I will look through those... As I said earlier, your blog is such a knowledge repository for me, more so because I am new to Bangalore.
Thanks once again.