After a long time, I have come here. Honestly it was a conscious decision on my part not to blog during what has become the toughest phase of my life. In short this is what happened in last two months.
How much ever I tried to be optimistic and tell myself that I can face this challenge, at the end of the day, seeing my baby sleep tore my heart and I started questioning myself on what I did wrong and why all this is happening to me. Since I mostly blog during the night, it meant that most of my thoughts were depressing and definitely not something that I would want to read later or worse even pass it on to others. So, I did not blog.
But, when friends call or message and ask me how I am doing because there is no update on the blog, I feel guilty. I definitely should be loyal to my readers (thank God even two count as plural :)). Thanks folks for remembering me. I am doing okay, trying my level best to help my child. Thankfully he is responding well to the therapy. His concentration, sitting tolerance and eye contact has improved. He responds when his name is called most of the time. He still is not speaking. I guess will have to start speech therapy in a month or two.
Apart from my son, I know very less of what has happened in the last three months. TV is totally banned at home. No current affairs. No IPL. No Sports. No serials. No films. Whatever little I know is because of blogs or facebook. (I tell you I never thought I can live without a TV for so long, but it really has been a boon. I have not missed it much.) I have been reading a lot of books and which has really helped in giving me some peace at the end of the day. Some day, I will document more about autism and things that I have learned. It was an eye-opener for me.
So, that’s what is happening at my end and will be the same for the next two months I guess. Once again, thanks for keeping a check on me. Love you all!!!
- ADHD became autistic.
- A normal child was labeled “special child.”
- An enthusiastic mom became a depressed mom and then a determined mom.
How much ever I tried to be optimistic and tell myself that I can face this challenge, at the end of the day, seeing my baby sleep tore my heart and I started questioning myself on what I did wrong and why all this is happening to me. Since I mostly blog during the night, it meant that most of my thoughts were depressing and definitely not something that I would want to read later or worse even pass it on to others. So, I did not blog.
But, when friends call or message and ask me how I am doing because there is no update on the blog, I feel guilty. I definitely should be loyal to my readers (thank God even two count as plural :)). Thanks folks for remembering me. I am doing okay, trying my level best to help my child. Thankfully he is responding well to the therapy. His concentration, sitting tolerance and eye contact has improved. He responds when his name is called most of the time. He still is not speaking. I guess will have to start speech therapy in a month or two.
Apart from my son, I know very less of what has happened in the last three months. TV is totally banned at home. No current affairs. No IPL. No Sports. No serials. No films. Whatever little I know is because of blogs or facebook. (I tell you I never thought I can live without a TV for so long, but it really has been a boon. I have not missed it much.) I have been reading a lot of books and which has really helped in giving me some peace at the end of the day. Some day, I will document more about autism and things that I have learned. It was an eye-opener for me.
So, that’s what is happening at my end and will be the same for the next two months I guess. Once again, thanks for keeping a check on me. Love you all!!!